I never imagined that I could create possibilities from my challenges until my quarter-life crisis. Though I thought I had everything I needed, a good job, a budding relationship, I was happy. I was paying bills, I could afford an apartment, but then, everything changed.
Swiftly, I went from being the outgoing person I knew to shut up inside with no money, a new apartment I couldn’t afford, and a new job.
Also, I had a new haircut “down to the scalp” which came as a result of me needing a fresh start and the fear of my health failing from stress and depression.
How did I get here?
Well, I accept my part in this story. People pleasing, always being the giver, never the receiver, and putting too much faith in others than I did in myself.
I didn’t love myself “no one taught me how to do that” and now I was paying the consequences. Depression and no hair.
But the universe, god, and my deep inner desire to transform my life would not allow me to give up on myself when everyone else around me did.
Friends stopped coming over or calling, embarrassing relationship stuff, and debt collectors REALLY loved my phone number.
It was in that moment of me standing in front of the mirror with wet hair and a pair of scissors that I snipped that final chapter of my life away and did what I needed to do to get a fresh start.
And it was really difficult.
The Test Of My Life.
Doing it all on my own was the test of my life. Some days went better than others, and some I spent weekends sleeping on the couch “since I was still trying to figure out my sleeping situation i.e no bed” & trying to figure out a plan to get out of this mess.
And a plan I did come up with. Slowly and slowly I started coming out of the phase.
I started spending my time with myself, I started to share my progress on my new blog which surprisingly helped others, I started to discover new people on penpal websites, I started to share snail mail letters and postcards, I started to dress better, I started to smile again and then I decided that I wanted to go to Paris.
And even though it was a long 2 years before the dream became a reality, every day I looked forward to escaping into the online world of blogs, French magazines, Facebook pages, and my favorite apartment rental websites.
I even enrolled in & got certified in my Delf A1 & A2 level with the Alliance Francaise both here & the online Mooc from Paris.
Then I began to dream more and started infusing what I was learning about the French way of living, into my lifestyle.
And I traded my vodka and cranberry juice for a glass of wine and Chinese food “still love it” for actual food at home.
And I started my self-discovery journey. Soon it would end in Paris with new friends, new adventures, and a new lifestyle.
Dreaming Bigger During My Challenges.
I bought myself a camera, started to study style bloggers of my time like Kristina Bazan and Chiara Ferragni, and Chriselle Lim, and started to invest in better choices of clothing, and then I wanted to do more.
I wanted to share the entire lifestyle aspect so I started an online business. And let me tell you the transition was the most challenging thing ever.
A new lack of confidence came and compared me to the online business world quite a lot. As I hid in the shadows and liked, tried, and emulated a few crushed-on coaches and mompreneurs.
I was a blog coach, a personal development coach, a goal coach, and then eventually all the searching led me to become a lifestyle coach – that ended too. After a few years in the industry, I felt even more exhausted and discontented, therefore I backpedaled to my blogging days.
But that epiphany only happened after I become more self-aware, self-loving, and self-confident and began to invest “time, money, and emotion” into myself and my business; because doing just as everybody else was not getting me anywhere; and it was beginning to stress me out once again.
Changing My Habits & Creating Possibilities.
I learned the art of becoming unbusy, what it meant to simply enjoy the process of growth, and being present & learned to just be me.
Transforming my wealth consciousness “and it took me a very long 1 year to grasp the concept alone” became key practice, and I became more grateful than I was in “ever”!!
I forgave and let go of a lot. Past traumas, pain, and toxic relationships. It was also another trying and depressing year because during that time I lost myself a tad bit once again. By allowing people and things that were not self-serving to take control.
A Beautiful Transition
In the end, though, I learned how to respond to life with bold confidence instead of reacting. I learned how to cultivate success without stress. I learned how to be joyous, and simply LIVE FULLY!
And it was a marvelous transition. With all the lessons and trials I’ve learned and gone through over the past 5 years, I would never trade for anything. I will take the pain, but I will also take the pleasure.
Because it’s through the pain that we learn how to color our lives and define them into our own version of elegant success.
It took me a long 5 years to get to this space, but you don’t have to.
Understanding what’s important to you and who you desire to become is the key to creating a lifestyle you love. It’s about confidently owning that and allowing it to come through instead of turning your back on it.
Had I decided to give up the 21 thousand times that option presented itself would I be here today doing this? Helping thousands of women choose confidence, chic boldness, and embracing life? I think not.
Maybe I would still be trying to figure out where my life was heading, whilst sweeping up my falling hair off the floor & smiling at the world.
Blossoming From My Challenges
I learned a very wise lesson this year from Martha Beck, “a caterpillar doesn’t go through the process of metamorphosis in a beautiful way.“
It first has to disintegrate into a pile of goop during its chrysalis stage.
This is a remarkable stage where all the cells, limbs, wings, and organs are transformed for its butterfly stage. The breakthrough.
.From the outside, it seems that the caterpillar is just resting. No one knows what’s taking place on the inside, but this is a necessary stage. This we all know. but the lesson is this
“We must first break down into the ugliest stage of our lives in order to transform into the life we desire to live, and that is completely ok.”— MENELLIA VALCENT
Lessons & Takeaway
So if you take away one lesson from MY STORY, let it be “allow the process”. Whatever you’re going through, stop reacting to it. Stop reacting to life hoping that it will align itself and instead learn to respond in a chic way. And there is no better time to begin than now.
I have understood that progress is a process. And it requires true patience, true balance and just letting it fall into place.
The norm has become that we as women stress ourselves out being beautiful, being successful, making the 10k months, getting consistent clients, and traveling all year long.
AND YES, ALL THESE THINGS ARE AMAZING, trust the process and never sacrifice your well-being.